Confusion

Have you ever felt so confused you just wanted to scream? That's where I'm at right now....

I melt the mini M&M's on my tongue and try to calm myself as I think of my problems. There seems to be a time in people life where things are so wonderful all at once, and then so horrible all at once. Whether your problems in life are with family, or with friends. Life seems like it decides to pile up all your mistakes, burdens, and  worries and then let them all out at once (with a shot of surprise), and watch you lie in the puddle of misfortune that it has thrown your way.

We can set ourselves up for misfortune. I believe that, but I also know that tragedies/ failures/ horrors can happen out of our hands too. The world decides that what they do will not effect others. Wrong. What we do from day to day can ruin ourselves and others around us. (I'm sorry this isn't supposed to be a guilt trip, I'm just talking it out into reality). So what we do does effect ourselves and others around us, okay you get it.

Well, right now I'm just really upset with the promises that have been broken, words that weren't meant to be kept, and watching the people I love fall to their knees in despair because of the hurt that they feel. I'm becoming one of them its seems. We all get that way every once in a while, and some stay that way all of their life. (This is really crappy of me to have my first two blogs about world hurt/ suffering only after the first opening blog huh. Believe me, I didn't plan it this way, it just kind of happened.)

Confusion when you have these feelings of regret, hurt, anger, and mistrust can cause you to want to do many things. I suggest just going outside and sitting (go to your happy place if not outside) and just chill. Sometimes it helps right away, some times it takes a little while, maybe a few times before you can get over it and willing to talk to someone. Anger eats at our hearts like a evil (fill in the blank) and it won't leave you alone. So chill, think it out, talk it out (because communication is key) and try to get all the pieces to your puzzle before you assume the worst. If the worst is to be assumed...then scream. yell. Do what you need to do to get it all out and move on.

(Dang this got really long, my apologies) Hope you all have a good week