Rambling about life

Hello to the people who actually read this. I hope you are all doing well. I've been quite the busy bee here lately with going on Finals week and meeting new people. I've finally come to the realization that even though  you have a class that you hate at first, and it's difficult, you some how end up making bonds with people in the process and then you don't want the school semester to be over. It's really hard and sad when you finally find a class that you feel like you're a part of and can act yourself in, and they don't say  much to tear you down. I guess what I'm saying is that I'm not used to getting attached to these people the way that I have, and I feel this pain in my chest when I realize I won't be seeing some of them again for either eternity, or at least for a few months.

 Things are funny in the way that they change. I'm still pretty young, in my last year of being a literal teen and not really sure where I'm going with my life. Sometimes I wish I could be old and full of intelligence but still have my youthful look so then I could be smart, pretty, and no have to worry about doing stupid things. I could life a pretty perfect life and not have to worry about anything too badly. Alas, I am not old, so I go from day to day tripping over my own two feet and wishing I knew better or how to handle things in a more graceful way.

Apologies, I'm going off on a rambling spree, if you wish to read on, then go for it, but if not you should stop here. Just saying.

So school is changing and the people are coming and going who are in my classes and soon to be in my classes. The only class that isn't slow enough for you to get really used to someone is math. Math changes every month where you either pass what you have "learned" or you fail and take it again, but the sucky thing is that you can't have more than three shots at passing it or else.....something happens, I'm not sure what. Supposedly my school is the first to try this new method out and then next fall other schools will take this up (I'm not sure about this information so if you are in a community college, this could be a false alarm or a warning...)

Now for the juicy stuff. I've met a very intelligent, very attractive, funny, sweet guy and he's pretty awesome. We hit it off pretty great, and for once this "like" is on a two-way street! I'm just as amazed as you are. I never thought I would ever attract anyone really, I'd just grow old with a bunch of cats or dogs, but I guess fate has something planned for me. I guess it just goes to show you that things can happen, you just have to get out there and meet new people, and boy am I glad I met him. We've been chatting off and on, and even cuddled and hugged, nothing crazy or PG-13. Just taking it slow, and I like this, it's nice having the feeling of being wanted by someone. It's hard though being rescued when you've always rescued yourself. Being the interdependent woman that I've become isn't a bad thing, but it can cause me to push people away when they get too close.

Yep, I guess we all have our issues that we're trying to get through, and hopefully there is someone there to be with you and help you get through them too.  I wish the best for you all, in good health and if you celebrate Christmas, a very Merry Christmas to you!

I'll catch you all on the flip side.